I need to make something.
it seems as though I get these revelatory thoughts
but then through circumstance I am drawn down
by my condition into a mixed state -
the power to continue to be self responsible
to take care of my needs and life even so is so important
and key.
I wrote this in a text to my youngest sister. We can think a like at times.
She appreciated this a lot:
Hi A, I was thinking about how some days at some pivotal points in life that I wish things would happen a certain way. Where someone would fulfill my dream of doing something thoughtful or whatever like that. I realized that I gotta be self responsible and organize that stuff for myself and It’s an empowering thought. If I really want something like that I have the power to get it or make it.
I thought of J how she does not shy away from organizing things in her life that she wants. The idea also inspires in me a greater appreciation for whatever comes my way.
I’m just resting now because I had a full night of eating and drinking last night with S. Can you believe we’ve known each other for 42 years!!??!!
I hope things with your IVF journey are going well. We all want it for you so much! Sending peace and good vibes!!
xo
It also makes me want to create those kinds of moments for the loved ones in my life.
Like owning my agency. And not just ever wishing
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and then I wrote as well:
Having a really hard time, like I just need to submit and ride it out. I’ll lay down on the couch.
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Creativity is a healing thang!
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Aw ((((Marcos))))) you’re so sweet
Gentlest of hugs <3
Thanks lil missy