I met a guy
I met a guy. He's from plentyoffish.com. I spent the whole day texting with him and he seems to be great. I didn't have one red flag- not one! And that never happened to me before w a man ever. We were asking questions about each other back and forth- and he did ask a semi sexual question- but I declined to answer and told him why and he seemed to be okay with that. Then later I broke. He asked if I am comfortable naked. That's what started it. I am quite comfortable naked. I told him so. He said he's the same way and he talked about being home in his boxers. That sparked my interest a lot. Now mind you- I'm a very sexual person. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. But sex to soon, talking about sex too soon, it's never good for me. I am very aware of my boundary issues.
So here's what happened- I started talking shit back to him- nothing crazy- nothing graphic- just a couple of benign questions. He said he was getting turned on- I said I was too. And all of a sudden the whole dynamic changed in my eyes. I went from not having one apprehension to feeling needy and scared. Throughout the day he was working so he would text me sporadically- and same w me. But my texts were less sporadic than his. Either way- he was working so its cool. It was also a bbm convo so I was able to see when he read my text or not. After he read my texts he never took that long to respond. Honestly - I can't think of what he's done wrong.
But here's what I noticed- He seeemed to be shorter w the responses after my comment then he was before. Now that could be b/c he's working or whatever- but I just felt it was different. He was still being sweet but I felt like it was a formality. I was very insecure. But I don't know- I feel suspect now. So- I went to visit my grandma for an hour or so and I purposely didn't take my phone in. 2 reasons for that- I want to hang out w my grandma and I dont want to be distracted. The other reason is that I just didn't want to stare at the phone and wait for shit- it felt like it used to feel w J and I didn't like it. So I texted him that I know he got up early and I bet he was about to pass out. I told him I'd be away from my phone for about an hour and that I had a great time talking to him all day and I'd talk to him tomorrow. He read the text and didn't respond. I really don't care for that.
You know what- I'm just gonna let him know tomorrow that the texting thing is not so cool w me and I'm not going to be as available for him- putting my shit on hold for him. And I'll see what happens. Maybe he addresses it tomorrow that he didn't respond. I hope he does. But either way- better for me to pump the breaks a little. We have a date tomorrow. I'm thinking to myself that I hope he doens't cancel- all the familiar traits are coming back and I just wont let them fuck w me this time.
Anyway I was really excited about this date at first- now I'm not so sure. We'll see I guess.
So here's what happened- I started talking shit back to him- nothing crazy- nothing graphic- just a couple of benign questions. He said he was getting turned on- I said I was too. And all of a sudden the whole dynamic changed in my eyes. I went from not having one apprehension to feeling needy and scared. Throughout the day he was working so he would text me sporadically- and same w me. But my texts were less sporadic than his. Either way- he was working so its cool. It was also a bbm convo so I was able to see when he read my text or not. After he read my texts he never took that long to respond. Honestly - I can't think of what he's done wrong.
But here's what I noticed- He seeemed to be shorter w the responses after my comment then he was before. Now that could be b/c he's working or whatever- but I just felt it was different. He was still being sweet but I felt like it was a formality. I was very insecure. But I don't know- I feel suspect now. So- I went to visit my grandma for an hour or so and I purposely didn't take my phone in. 2 reasons for that- I want to hang out w my grandma and I dont want to be distracted. The other reason is that I just didn't want to stare at the phone and wait for shit- it felt like it used to feel w J and I didn't like it. So I texted him that I know he got up early and I bet he was about to pass out. I told him I'd be away from my phone for about an hour and that I had a great time talking to him all day and I'd talk to him tomorrow. He read the text and didn't respond. I really don't care for that.
You know what- I'm just gonna let him know tomorrow that the texting thing is not so cool w me and I'm not going to be as available for him- putting my shit on hold for him. And I'll see what happens. Maybe he addresses it tomorrow that he didn't respond. I hope he does. But either way- better for me to pump the breaks a little. We have a date tomorrow. I'm thinking to myself that I hope he doens't cancel- all the familiar traits are coming back and I just wont let them fuck w me this time.
Anyway I was really excited about this date at first- now I'm not so sure. We'll see I guess.
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