i may b pregnant

omg.  wtf.  im looking 4 an apt 2 move into b/c my husband wont stop having an affair.  and now b/c of having an afternoon delight in the shower i may b pregnant? come on God.  what r u thinkin.it just wasnt har5d enuf for me? lets make it harder?  and he says that hed change.  i dont believe that.  the 3 children we already have hasnt made him change.  y wld a 4th?  he started having an affair when our 3rd child was only 5 mnths old.  y wld this child make any dif? make him love me.  y wld this child get his attn? i dont agree with abortion but im really considering it in this circumstance.  i took a test, but maybe its wrong.  im going 2 the dr sat.  if she confirms it i dont know what ill do.  i hate 2 bring a child another child into this broken family.  a child is supposed 2 b a blessed event.  howcan i b happy?