I made an amends today

The opportunity presented itself. I came across some Facebook messages I had sent my aunt years ago. It was shortly after my husband died. I was so high and at that point I kept pushing the limit. I didn’t care if I died as long as I was as high as possible. That was back in 2011. I sent my aunt a message this morning. We haven’t talked since then. I apologized to her and I told her I’d understand if she didn’t reply back. She actually did and was very compassionate. She told me she loved me. So I know I’m not at the specific “step” but I’m so thankful I had the opportunity to apologize to her. I can’t change the past, but I can try to clean up what I can and learn from the rest.