I'm so sad
I think I am finally getting on track with my weight loss. I hadn't lost anything for 3 weeks, then I dropped 5 lbs. I had been eating a lot of stuff I know I shouldn't, so I've cut way back on that and started exercising. Also I am weighing myself every few days instead of up to 3 times a day. It's hard to keep the eating on track because I am going through a very difficult period. My son just got out of jail again and he's living with me. Then I found out my daughter will soon be moving to another state, with my granddaughters of course. Those girls are my life and I am so sad to not be able to be in their lives. I feel like I'm dying inside. Maybe I'm too attatched, but those babies have been my inspiration for the weight loss and everything I've been doing to improve myself; going back to school, exercising, trying to make a better life and be a better me. They have gotten me through so many difficult times just being their cute darling selves. They bring me so much joy, and I don't know how I will live without them in my life. I want to be there for them. I never had anyone I could go to when I was growing up. I felt so alone in the world. I tried to make sure that didn't happen to my kids, and I think I did for the most part, but I really want to be there for my grandkids. I will be so alone here when they go. I just don't know how I'll handle it. I haven't told my daughter how deeply I will miss them because I think it's a good move for her and the girls, it just sucks for me. They want me to go with them, but I can't leave my brother to take care of my mother alone. I just wanted to get this all out of me.