I'm so confused...

I'm so lost in my own head.  I just posted on the boards about being an attention seeking drama queen...so I could be one there?  Ugh.  Maybe it is just a cry out for help.  I feel myself sliding downwards and my feet are screeching and my heels are bleeding but I can't seem to stop it.  My pdoc is awesome but I don't know if she'll hear this beacuse I have a tendency to play things down  just by habit.  I don't like people worrying about me.  Ugh!!!  But I am drowning.  I can't even breathe anymore.  Monday.  Just have to survive till then...