I'm ready..

I'm ready...I'm ready to just give up..I can't take it anymore. I've been on this earth for 21 years and it has brought nothing but pain and regrets. I'm ready to have sex as well I was saving myself but I see it's pointless now. I was molested when I was younger and I was almost raped twice. I can't trust people bruh. Parents are two controlling. Why can't I just let go.. I just want to let go.