i'm proud to call him my boyfriend

i'm proud to call Nick my boyfriend. he means so much to me, and he's ACTUALLY really a great guy, and he's a goofy fuck, and he loves my quirks, and he doesn't try to change me, and he's weird in ways that i am weird-which is perfection!-, and we let each other be ourselves, and we love each other as we are, and that is really freeing. of course, there are things about him that drive me up the wall.. but that's not what this entry is about. he listens when i need it. he has a good head on his shoulders. he's as smart as me (lol). he's concerned about stuff i'm going thru. he gives good advice that makes fckn sense to me. in the beginning, i was worried he was just a fake, only trying to get in my pants. but as time continues to pass, the doubts drop away more and more, and the trust is building. and also, i realize even after 6 months, it's too soon to say "i do" and to promise my forever, but this relationship is building into something great. and also, slowly, i'm realizing how a relationship is supposed to go. i've had it wrong before, i've gone way too fast before. what Nick and i have is a good pace, even tho i get impatient ALOT, but that's my own problem. and any negative things that come up, i overthink it all the time, especially when i'm tired, or PMSing. and i blow it out of proportion. so when that happens, i have to look at the issue more closely to see if it's really an issue. and i know, questioning my relationship will make it stronger. if i think there's a problem, then, when i analyze it/question it, i'll see there's not really a problem after all, and the relationship will strengthen in my mind and the trust will grow, OR i will find out that there really is a problem, and we can work thru it, or whatever, go from there....