I'm lonely without my dear sweet Smokey

I'm lonely without my dear sweet Smokey.  We were each other's best friends, lovers and companions as we did everything together as a couple.  It's the major reason there is a huge hole in my heart.  We did everything together like laughed, loved, lamented on things and complained to one another.  We bounced things off one another.   He was the practical and straight forward kind of guy.  I had my head in the clouds at times and other times was not quite logical in my thought process.  I would panic and Smokey would calm me down.  I would get angry and Smokey would calm me down.  Now I am alone to be let loose and that is not always a good thing.  I like the fact that Smokey shot straight from the hip.  There were no holes barred.   You always knew where you stood with Smokey.  He would tell it up front.  He was good at holding secrets.  He always surprised me each Christmas.  I am so lonely without him but not in a hurry to find anyone else at the moment.  If you don't go looking for love, it will find you if it is meant to be.  I had almost given up on love when Smokey and I met.  At the time I was into Astrological compatibility but Smokey was not.  I said in my heart that if I don't meet a Taurus man, I will stop dating.  When we met, I asked him his sign and he was a Taurus man.  Smokey said he didn't believe in it and I said it doesn't matter because I do.  The rest we had ten beautiful years together before God took him away from me.  I don't regret those ten beautiful years at all.  Smokey was the love of my life.  I don't have that anymore but beautiful memories in my heart.