I'm lost

This is me saying I'm tired and lost. I'm tired of trying so hard but feeling like I'm always behind, like i still don't know where I'm going, like everyone else gets things together, or gets what they want an I'm still sitting here like I don't know what's going on. People who claim to care about be treat me like I don't matter, blatantly use me, or just plain don't talk to me. Not to play the victim, I could just say no and stand up for myself, but I don't. I don't because I'm scared if I stand up there will be no one left.