I'm kinda boring

Not really sure what's up with me.  I'm in this funk and I can't seem to get out of it.  It's incredibly frustrating.  My mom was def a trigger for it but now that's sorted more or less and I still feel sad.  I hate falling into this hole because it's so much work to climb out of it. I applied for SSI today because I don't qualify for regular disability since I don't have enough credits.  Wow what an impossible system.  I was onlne for like four hours filling out the application and I waited for two hours at the ssa office to turn in their fourteen medical waiver forms.  So I have the appointment next week and we'll see how that goes.  It was kind of traumatizing though and I ended up in tears in the parking lot.  Ergh.