I'm just here

Well I am/was mad most of the weekend. I'm Smh as I write this because I was mad at one person and took it out on everyone else, although they don't know it, but Im not talking to them. I blocked their #s in my cell and I'm not taking text messages. But I don't have to worry because no one called or texted to see how I'm doing. My best friend called me but she don't want anything, I feel like her science experiment a gadget. "oh poor Krndbnewark, let me call and see what she is not doing and tell her what I am doing and then hang up the phone."
Also, I'm not sure if I want to go to therapy, I'm not getting much out of it. I cried the last time and I wanted to die from embrassment... I'm alone and I was feeling sorry for myself. and it was the day after my Cousins Bday. I was missing my mother the other day and didn't want to do anything.
I'm just going through the motions and I don't feel like I care anymore.