I'm having trouble.

I'm trying to change the way I think and it is really wearing me down. My mind in in war with itself telling me the good and bad things about myself. Just tearing itself apart and attacking each side. I might just sit down with myself later today and talk with myself and tell myself the good things about myself. Trying to change my emotion when I hear something good about myself. I have to train myself with  the way I react to things about myself. I want to get through this and I really think I can. I'm really scared about doing this. I really want to do it though. I guess I'll just do it while I'm scared. That works I guess, I'm not giving up on it. Just a little scared. I will try talking to myself throuhout the day and try to talk to my emotions about how they should react to things. Then, soon I won't have to do that anymore. I'll just know what to do.
I'm actually more excited than scared. I can't wait to change and see how I am when I'm not so down on myself all the time. But, I have to do little things at a time. I'll try to make up weekly goals for myself so I won't stop helping myself. Maybe doing this will help my attention span and maybe it'll help how I remember things and maybe I won't have to have to have things explained to me over and over again. Idk if that will happen. But, I know something good will happen.
I hope I don't have to do anything that requires alot of moving. My body still feels like shit today.