I'm feeling really alone (this has a video attached)

One of the really bad fallout pieces of me being afraid of people is that at times I feel very, very alone.  But I'm just so so scared to flap my wings because...
...honestly, even thought the bombing is now close to two weeks astern, and even with a trip to the spot of said bombing under my belt, I just can't convince myself that anywhere, or anyone, is safe.  I've been losing sleep about this and I'm in the middle of a breakdown about it now (if you've never tried to do a journal entry while you're crying...I don't recommend it).
Frankly, if I'm still feeling like this in a few weeks, it's not going to take a lot for me to start intentionally blowing up interviews (assuming I get any) when I want to start looking for paralegal work, just as I did five or six times before I got the part-time job that I have now.
I wish I could be around the few friends I have everywhere...
(this, appropriately enough, is Fleetwood Mac's "Everywhere", from 1987's Tango in the Night).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThbMaq8hDEo
(Calling out your name...)
(Calling out your name...)
Can you hear me callingOut your nameYou know that I'm fallingAnd I don't know what to sayI'll speak a little louderI'll even shoutYou know that I'm proudAnd I can't get the words outOh I...I want to be with you everywhereOh I...I want to be with you everywhere(Wanna be with you everywhere)Something's happeningHappening to meMy friends say I'm acting peculiarlyC'mon babyWe better make a startYou better make it soonBefore you break my heartOh I...I want to be with you everywhereOh I...I want to be with you everywhere(Wanna be with you everywhere)Can you hear me callingOut your nameYou know that I'm fallingAnd I don't know what to sayCome along babyWe better make a startYou better make it soonBefore you break my heartOh I...I want to be with you everywhereOh I...I want to be with you everywhereOh I...I want to be with you everywhereOh I...I want to be with you everywhere(Wanna be with you everywhere)