I'm Done With Him
Eric and I have been having our differences lately but this morning when I woke up I felt like he was being sneaky. Being a woman, after he went to bed, I checked his messages. I found a couple messages to a couple bitches saying 'he wanted to fuck' and he told one bitch 'he's only with me for certain reasons.' BUT these messages were from last April, so almost a year ago. I found a message to me from around the same time he was talking to those bitches. He said he was all mine, lol. What a fucking pig.
I don't know what to do though. I don't want to be like all of the other bitches, saying 'but I love him,' but it's fuckin true. I do love him and it that makes it so much harder. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life wit this man. He 'was' the best man I had ever been with. I don't know what I'm going to do without his kids. I'm going to be lost. I picture myself just rotting away in my bedroom because I don't want anyone else but him. But he fucked this up. I thought we were true.
{I want to write something a friend of mine wrote to me a long time ago.}
"True love is never true regardless of who you may be because love will end in the end and you won't be able to love thee or even enjoy the fact of being loved by thee."
Kind of reminds me of my situation. It's after 4:30 am. I need to go to sleep so I can wake up and think about what I'm about to do. I don't want to though, because I'll have to sleep next to Eric and I really don't want to be any where near him right now.
I can't believe he did that after I took him and his kids into my dad's house.
I gotta stop writing or I wont stop.
I don't know what to do though. I don't want to be like all of the other bitches, saying 'but I love him,' but it's fuckin true. I do love him and it that makes it so much harder. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life wit this man. He 'was' the best man I had ever been with. I don't know what I'm going to do without his kids. I'm going to be lost. I picture myself just rotting away in my bedroom because I don't want anyone else but him. But he fucked this up. I thought we were true.
{I want to write something a friend of mine wrote to me a long time ago.}
"True love is never true regardless of who you may be because love will end in the end and you won't be able to love thee or even enjoy the fact of being loved by thee."
Kind of reminds me of my situation. It's after 4:30 am. I need to go to sleep so I can wake up and think about what I'm about to do. I don't want to though, because I'll have to sleep next to Eric and I really don't want to be any where near him right now.
I can't believe he did that after I took him and his kids into my dad's house.
I gotta stop writing or I wont stop.
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