I'm coming out of a fog after 3 years.

I feel like I am coming out of a fog after three years since Smokey has passed away.
I feel as if i was living in a fog and not knowing what was really going on in my life.
I feel like now I am in the process of getting my life together.
I don't know how everyone did it when they were working at a job.   I guess the job helped you through the grieving process of your own personal loss of your loved one.
I have got to get my act together in every area of my life:  spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically and financially.
I finally made a doctors appointment.  It is for this Wednesdsy.  I want a physical.  I haven't had one in two years.  It is weird at my doctors office that I have to see the doctor first at an appointment before they will book a physical for me.  I find that strange.
On the same day as the doctors appointment, I have an afternoon interview.  It is all this Wednesday.
I feel sad today and not together with it.  I am bumbed out.