I'm back for now.

So, since the last time I was on i think I've gotten a lot better. Me and the guy who I was so crazy about are no longer a part of each others life.. Which hurts occasionally, but overall I know it's for the best. And I'm dealing. And I have a boyfriend now. My best friend asked me to be his girlfriend and after hours of debating, I decided to give it a shot. And I'm really glad I did. I just hope that I make him as happy as he makes me. 
I finally made it to a doctor and he put me on a couple of medications, I'm waiting for the one for my anxiety/depression to actually kick in, which isn't fun... but I'm hopeful. I'm struggling.. I won't lie, nothing is easy.. But, I feel much better than I have in a while. Things can only go up from here. I finally see the light at the end up the tunnel. Well, it's more like someone waving a glowstick.. xD But that enough for me right now. I just thought I'd post an update. Because I was going through a lot and I was really upset when I left. I was at a really low point.. But I am keeping my chin up and trying to be strong, for me, for my boyfriend,  for my nephew.. I am trying to be better.. I just have to keep reminding myself that I can do this. I WILL get better.