I'm Back

OMG it's been a long time since I have been here, I got married, hired permately. Now life is now a tornado, I went from working with co workers to working from home, no people interaction, took some time to get use to, I live in a rural area, internet sucked, worked at mother n laws house ended up working back at home, Corona Virus hit and really got lonely because didn't leave the house for months. I started going crazy in my head, things started to show up in weird areas of my office, bedroom that I don't recall doing; thought I was being video taped by my husband and Step kids; I was flipping out where I put a gun to my head trying to get a reaction from myu husband if he was watching me on Video. I feel he is watching me, I feel I am on display for his whole family.  I ended up seeing a Psych who diagnosed me with Bipolar and now on meds to balance me. I'm not so freaking out as much but still feel I am being watched. He's saying things the only way to know is if he was watching me.  Deep down I hate this man; for fucking with my head, heis evil for doing this. May God strike him back luck if he is privately video taping me. I can't be myself anymore, I can't dress myself but to go in the bathroom and dress feeling he is watching me I FUCKEN HATE HIM. I know he is watching me.  I KNOW He's so evil I hate him. WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME.