I'm at a loss...

Rough times. Grateful I'm not drinking to help me deal. Doesn't help with anything as we know. Eating too much though and that doesn't help either. I'm just not in a very good place. My dtr was crying to me Friday night about her dad... Breaks my heart. I continue to clean up his toxic waste that pollutes our children's heart and spirits. My son moved back to school today. Beginning of a new semester. Make or break for him. He is on academic probation. He got into some trouble over Xmas, which was such a painful and emotional time. First time ever with the police. Now he has to go to court and answer to these charges. Hired a lawyer. Just when things seemed to be turning around for him, now this. 2015 began terribly and continued for pretty much 12 months. I was so hopeful that 2016 was gonna be a better year. So far, it's worse than I could've imagined. I'm exhausted. I've cried until my eyes are dry and swollen and eaten everything I can. I just want to stay in bed....