I'm angry today
Even my dreams are beginning to piss me off. Nothing seems to be positive lately. I just feel so angry and I'm not sure where it is coming from. Maybe I do and do not want to face it. I'm so sick of being the victum. The toy that everyone violated and the uncertanty of a peaceful future. I do not have hope today. I know all the positive things I can say to myself and many scripture verses that I could stand on, but I'm tired of standing. I want to give up. This life really sucks sometimes. Just when you think you have a moment to breathe you get slapped in the face with another painful moment. I so want to give up the fight. I'm felling very suicidal right now.
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Yes, life brings one pain after another. The struggle is hard. I pray for you that you will find the strength to continue, and that some joy will come to you and encourage you.
I am very sorry I didn\'t get to this sooner. I just read your most recent post in the ptsd group and it seems you are feeling a bit better. I hope so. I repeat what I put on your more recent journal entry--I HAVE SEEN YOU GROW A LOT SO DON\'T GIVE UP NOW!!!