I'll be happy when.....

A big moment for me... Like HUGE was when I was about a month or 2 before surgery and I realized I was ALREADY happy! Yes, I need to lose weight for my health, to feel better about myself... yada yada.... but happiness? I already had that. It took me many years to find this and figure it out, but it was freeing to know my happiness was not wrapped up in the size of my jeans any longer.... Because in years gone by, I can remember saying to myself... "I'd be happy if I could lose xyz pounds". I think part of this came by just getting older.... But however it happened, I am just glad it did. It feels so good to know my happiness is NOT wrapped up in the # on a scale or the size of my jeans!