I like your way!
I was liberated by thoughts which were inspired today. I called
my father, while I was in distress but I was owning
my emotional state. I talked to Dad and he seemed
struggling with getting on with taking care of his 5 children
and an ailing wife. I realized he was quite emotional and
that we all are struggling emotionally to
get through the rudiments and practicals of surviving
with our emotions in full gear - vrrrooommm.
I realized I am a very emotional person, that my family is
quite emotional. I realized later on while sitting in services
(I sat out the conducting part of it this evening ti rest) that I was
so much trying to find the right way to move myself forward
in life...'bullet proof'...With consideration of the feelings I am managing and the direction
I am going in
as well as taking example from how how I was shown and taught
how to behave. I thought about my last therapist who told me
'after all, we're all just people' - relief!!! that so rung a bell tonight.
It lit the way! I saw there is no right way to conduct my life
in the major sense of my emotions. We all have a way...My last therapist had her way,
a great inspiring way in that (I miss her very much and how relaxing she was
to be around) and I have my way. I can keep focused on the practicals of
life - but for the life I am sharing with family and friends we each
might add the spice of the way each of us handle life.
In that instance I could look beyond myself
and see how my Dad and my siblings all have a very specific way
of dealing with life....much it reflection and details about pragmatics
and logic and safety. Each of us with our own ways - our own worlds -
but very much guided by the family tradition that comes from maybe
not liking things to get too dynamic or too subject to the forces
which would get us into trouble or pain if we did not parse
it out. It's maybe a legacy of pain that I am able to see past now!! I am so lucky!! I love my family!
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Big hug sweetie...I am sorry that your dad and stepmom are struggling
It's nice that you regularly check in on him
I can always tell how much you love them....Big hug...xo
Thanks Jan!
What a lot of insights today! Most of us do have strong relationships within our families, both positive and negative.
It's good that you can see the positives today and love them!
Thanks GT!!