I just want this to stop.
Okay, my last period was in 2009. Now it's 3 1/2 years later....WHEN will it STOP?! I NEED IT TO STOP!! I want to be happy, reliable, energetic, SANE again! I don't need to be able to do the decathalon....I just want to wake up and spend my day feeling okay, if not good. I have SO MANY things I need to do, and I see my life slipping away. (The Really Bad Stuff started in December '05, so I've been doing this over 8 years. That's enough.)
I already have epilepsy. The possibility of seizures (with no known triggers) keeps me from driving. There's no one to help except my husband who has to work. I'm already unreliable and don't have the control over mind, body, and life that normal people do. Now This....is too much.
I desperately need an aunt who lives close by and can come over and be with me when I'm going through the bad stuff and my husband's at work. I need someone to hold me and just keep telling me over and over that everything's going to be alright, that I am loved, that they're proud of me, until it goes away. My mother died over 20 years ago....she would've been wonderful.
I'm SO SICK AND TIRED of being sick and tired. And sometimes, for DAYS...days of aches, pains, anxiety, sorrow, grief, instability, weakness, fatigue...never knowing when it will end. Oh, God, and the panic attacks are the worst. It's like having a 30-minute seizure with abject terror mixed in.
The worst part is all the time I've lost with my daughter. She's was turning 7 when this all started, and our quality time has been way too little. Even now, since she's a teenager, she doesn't have a lot of time for me, so all the time I spend shaking on the couch continues to take away what little time we do have.
How many more days, months, years will I lose? Will I wake up one day, and it'll be all over, but now I'm 69 years old?
I need this to STOP. I. NEED. THIS. TO. STOP. NOW. IMMEDIATELY.
No answer necessary....I just needed to vent.
I already have epilepsy. The possibility of seizures (with no known triggers) keeps me from driving. There's no one to help except my husband who has to work. I'm already unreliable and don't have the control over mind, body, and life that normal people do. Now This....is too much.
I desperately need an aunt who lives close by and can come over and be with me when I'm going through the bad stuff and my husband's at work. I need someone to hold me and just keep telling me over and over that everything's going to be alright, that I am loved, that they're proud of me, until it goes away. My mother died over 20 years ago....she would've been wonderful.
I'm SO SICK AND TIRED of being sick and tired. And sometimes, for DAYS...days of aches, pains, anxiety, sorrow, grief, instability, weakness, fatigue...never knowing when it will end. Oh, God, and the panic attacks are the worst. It's like having a 30-minute seizure with abject terror mixed in.
The worst part is all the time I've lost with my daughter. She's was turning 7 when this all started, and our quality time has been way too little. Even now, since she's a teenager, she doesn't have a lot of time for me, so all the time I spend shaking on the couch continues to take away what little time we do have.
How many more days, months, years will I lose? Will I wake up one day, and it'll be all over, but now I'm 69 years old?
I need this to STOP. I. NEED. THIS. TO. STOP. NOW. IMMEDIATELY.
No answer necessary....I just needed to vent.
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