I just want her back

In the morning I cry, in the afternoon I cry, in the evening and at night I cry. She's coming from a visit to her fathers this weekend and I have this overwhelming sense of doom. I love her so much and can't bear the thought of losing her. We have our next counseling session tomorrow morning. I really hope there's a reason to go. I am so scared. She's everything to me in spite of all that's happened. I can't continue to exist like this. I tried going out to see some bands last night and had to leave after the 1st 1 because I just couldn't take it. We used to do that together all of the time and all I could think about was her beautiful smiling face. She loves music as do I. It's very hard being around happy people especially couples.