I hurt and am in great pain over the loss of my husband

I miss my husband affectionately called Smokey.  He died on Nov. 15, 2009.  I miss him each and every day.  It hurts so much.  I am in great pain at Smokey's passing away.  I look around the apartment and see what we did together.  Smokey was a man who did things.  We did everything together.  I miss that so very much.  When Smokey died, I lost my best friend, the love of my life and my partner in crime as we had much fun together.  Smokey got me.  He understood me better than I knew myself.