i havent written in here
not sure whats going on with me, is it the zoloft taking over is it one of my patterns i am falling into again, is there something more wrong with me. i am so confused, there is so much going on, i dont know where to start
lately i have been feeling detached from reality, addicted to this site in a way. but in need of it at the same time, i am married i have kids, and my mother lives in my house with us. so there are people around, i just cant seem to connect to any of them. due to my past, ( i am starting to think this is my new favorite saying) i have no friends, no real friends, my brother in law i have known for 30 years you would think we were friends but we arent, i did alot of damage to friendships due to my low opinion of myself,. i feel i cant connect with anyone on a one on one basis, and even on here, i think i try to hard to make a connection and i dont i read all the time, where people right why bother posting in a forum, no one replies, thats me, i have 3 posts i am trying to get people to relate to me on about things and they have never been posted on, so have i been shunned on here too, i dont know, i am not a bad guy, in comparison to alot of the people on here, a guy who friends every woman that comes on this site there are two of those, on here, or a guy who is a predator, i am just a guy who talks and likes to have conversations clean nice conversations, yes i am not dumb i know its the internet but being on this site has made me also realize i am not who i think i am and i think i need to be who i am, which is a nobody
lately i have been feeling detached from reality, addicted to this site in a way. but in need of it at the same time, i am married i have kids, and my mother lives in my house with us. so there are people around, i just cant seem to connect to any of them. due to my past, ( i am starting to think this is my new favorite saying) i have no friends, no real friends, my brother in law i have known for 30 years you would think we were friends but we arent, i did alot of damage to friendships due to my low opinion of myself,. i feel i cant connect with anyone on a one on one basis, and even on here, i think i try to hard to make a connection and i dont i read all the time, where people right why bother posting in a forum, no one replies, thats me, i have 3 posts i am trying to get people to relate to me on about things and they have never been posted on, so have i been shunned on here too, i dont know, i am not a bad guy, in comparison to alot of the people on here, a guy who friends every woman that comes on this site there are two of those, on here, or a guy who is a predator, i am just a guy who talks and likes to have conversations clean nice conversations, yes i am not dumb i know its the internet but being on this site has made me also realize i am not who i think i am and i think i need to be who i am, which is a nobody
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I do not think you are nobody. I feel alone in a room full of people I k ow ~ it sucks. Keep your chin up, I know it\'s hard. But it\'s easier for me having someone like you.
I think you are a good man, and the reason I say that is the way you responded to the woman who was raped. There are not many men who, would be on this site anyway, but would write with such compassion as you. This has nothing to do with anything else, you are a good person. We can feel alone even when we are in a room with a lot of people. Do you and your family ever have fun? Just asking.......Angel Grace
You\'re not a nobody. You have friends here who clearly care about you, including me.
I echo the words of those who have previously posted here...
I understand what it feels like to feel disconnected from others and I know that you are different from most other men.
I often feel that disconnection, myself, so you are not alone in that sense.
I know we haven\'t talked extensively, but I do wish to continue to get to know you better. You are a very sweet person....
I don\'t reply to a lot of stuff because I am really busy. You may have posted something I am really interested in but I couldn\'t respond because I don\'t have the time. Its not that I don\'t care about you or any one else I\'m just not always able.