I have no idea what I want to say today

Well nothing much has changed for me except maybe for my will to do better. I'm going to go out and put all my effort into finding a new job. I think if i can get back to working I'll feel so much better. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything in so long. Like I'm not living I'm just barely alive. I want to feel useful, like I'm giving something back to the world instead of just taking up space. Well thats it for today. 
Summer