I have been a widow since Nov. 15, 2009.

I have been a widow since Nov. 15, 2009.  The inward healing takes over and it is baby steps.  One step at a time.  It is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with on this crazy mixed up world we live on.  
Anyone else dating?  I have been dating Dave for eleven months.  I still miss my Smokey.  I carry Smokey with me, the hole in my heart when he died and the sadness of Smokey not being here with me, where he should be.  Dave is a good man.  I am  hoping this grief will slowly get better as time goes by.  I don't know. Anyone been a widow for 3 - 4 years and are dating again?  What's it like for you? Do you still mourn for your loss?  I would like to know.  
All the best from Diane B.