I hate my brain.

I feel like my memory is getting worse and worse everyday. At first I thought I was just imagining it. But, I  can't remember what I'm doing as I'm doing it and it's getting worse and worse.
It feels like the more I get depressed the worse my memory gets. But, IDK if that's true either. It just seems like it. I feel like my brain is trying to recover from a horrible beating after I try to recover from being depressed.Then it's trying to remember what's going on and it never gets a chance to fully recover.
It leaves my body feeling very very tired and stressed and just helpless.