I HATE HIM
I have been through every emotion with that man. I loved him. He was my rock. We were best friends .We talked about everything. He lied he manipulated. He verbally stabbed me. He cut my heart, he cut my soul. He was sweet he was considerate. He was uncaring. He shrugged it off. He said I complain too much. I tried. He complained about everything. He pointed out everything that was wrong with everything and everybody. He was miserable and it was my fault for not making him happy. I tried. He was leaving. I was numb. I left. I was happy. He missed me he needed me he wanted only me. He lied he manipulated he cried. He lied. I took him back. I was happy. He punished me. He was sorry. He pushed me away. I cried. He lied he manipulated. He stayed out one night. Two. Threee. Every. Midnight. 12:30. 2AM. 11:45. 4 AM. He was sorry. He lied. I tried. I tried. I told him to go. I told him I was numb. He left. He begged, he explained, he needed me, he needed us. He promised. He came back. 2:20AM.4AM. I am numb. I said go. I will not compete with bars and whores. I HATE HIM. Rage . Depression. Rage. I HATE HIM. Yes, he is capable of moments, bait on a hook to trap and ensnare. But the barb shines through the bait. I HATE HIM.
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well there is a very thin line between hate and love. I think you love him you just hate what he does and rightly so. Sometimes when we want out of a situation or a relationship we look at others faults to justify our feelings. I have no answers for you except to take some time and really think about what you really want. Not what he wants,but what you want. Maybe you should ask him why he needs you. Is it for sex? I would say then forget it. He is using you for his own gratification. My niece is going through the same thing and He sure has a way of worming his way back into her life. She has a soft heart and she falls for his lies every time. Not sure how long it will take her to really say enough is enough. Will be think of you through all this.
Hugs
Arlene