I hate feeling like this.

Right now I feel like the worst person in the world. I just feel useless and worthless even more than I have been. I try not to think that way and I try to just ignore my feelings. But, I'm so fuckin tired of being a sensitive person. I've basically been crying all day and been drinking a little vodka to calm myself down. The fuckin vodka didn't really do much. I just wish that I could like myself and I'm guessing that I thought that the vodka would do that.
I really don't know what to do. I've tried just about everything and I just wanna give up on myself right now. I might just curl up in my bed to wither away so I won't feel so much pain anymore. I'd rather be anywhere else instead of feeling how I'm feeling right now.