I had a scare 3/25/15 morning! Ryan came through in a dream!
I had a scare March 25, 2015 And then a visit from Ryan in my dream, I asked for help and he came through!!
Yesterday morning before I had to do my weekly Volunteer at the Elderly old age daycare, my dad came in to my part of the house, and wanted my Ex husbands sisters ph #, He said my brother called and heard someone found my Ex in his Car and he might of died, which he had been sitting in his aunts yard for the night.. He gets drunk and what ever else he must of taken made him pass out in the car.I broke down, we never had communicated well, we still don't have any conversation, it always ended argumentative and I don't have any fight left nor energy for that matter..He won't even talk with me about the loss of Ryan, he never could show any weakness, so he drinks and drugs to cope..Now my guilt kicks in and OMG hear comes the tears and don't want this to happen to him but he continues to drink and there is no talking to him, I learned to walk away..Anyway he is OK. She waited 24 hours to go check him out, she was glad she did, if she hadn't he wouldn't of been alive. His aunt called 911, the ambulance brought him into the hospital, his aunt said he couldn't speak and he was grey and his mouth was drooling.. He had drove in her yard and slept in his car, as he does in the summer at time, b/c of all the snow we had in FEB. March has been way to cold to pass out in the car here in NH)I was glad to here he was ok, cause I was getting ready to go to the old age place and wasn't sure if he was dead if I could carry on doing my volunteer work, and those elderly people love when we come, didn't want to let them down..Lan's mom and dad come too and we all laugh and have fun with them..Anyway I let Erica my daughter call her dad and she talked with his girlfriend..and find out the scoop.. Steve's GF Michelle sad they got into a fight and he left to get drunk exactly the way he did when we were together, She said when she got to the hospital he was out of it and the Doctor asked Steve, do you know where you are and Steve would say he is in his Sons bed, over and over, his GF and Aunt told the Doctor that his son died, he asked them how long has his son has been gone and none of them knew how long Ryan had been gone, Steve didn't know either, he said he didn't know but he would say he was in his sons bed... Of course when I heard that I cried, I wondered if he went to heaven and Ryan sent him back and saved his life... I am a BELIEVER, but if I asked Steve that he would of told me, what are you talking about, you're Crazy and whatever else.. It Saddens me,cuz I know how sick Steve is and NO-One can help him but him self...I am hoping this may stop him from what he is doing, but I don't think so...I told Erica get ready for her fathers death in the near future... She was silent on the other end, then in a soft voice she said I know. Erica also told me he called her the night before and she never called him back, But she just sent him a few Pictures of Me and Him and Erica together and Her Husband Chris and her, and some of Ryan and wrote him a nice note on the card a few days before and was wondering if he had got them in the mail before he went out and it all started his rage, i told her its not her fault he doesn't know any difference.. He doesn't have a clue about triggers of what causes him to go out and get drunk, beliviriated<sp>...Its a sad sad disease, but mixing pills and alcochol = death, some die and some don't, it doesn't make since. it saddens me, but he has choices in life and if he can't get it at age 58 then what else would be better for him, I'd rather see him in heaven with Ryan if that's the case, Cause sobering up in jail he wouldn't be-able to handle it, I know him.. I WISH I COULD TALK TO HIM and Clean my side of the street so I can have peace when whatever happens... I believe Ryan will guide me to him when its time, Ryan has been watching over all of us, I believe that was his calling to work with God and do what was laid out for him before he was born... I know cuz I always had a special bond with Ryan which was way bigger then a human being can understand, Hind sight is 20/20...Its a feeling only a mom who losses a child would know!Why I know, is I asked Ryan/God for a nice dream to help me understand what happened and maybe he would give me Information about his dad.. Which has happened to me throughout these nine years Ryan has been in heaven...
DREAM I had last night, came through again, Ask and we shall recieve!!
I remember laying on the floor in a dark room with Lan, I saw blue spots floating around, some in whole circles, and some in small pieces. I remember speaking out to Lan in my dream and he was watching TV, but I would talk in my sleep and he would say something back to me.. I heard him I fell into the darkroom of the dream, I could feel a sensation, I needed to be in this dream..I picked up a broom to sweep up the blue pieces and said I wonder if these blue pieces were Xanax.. From there I opened the door and walked into the next room, Ryan was standing there, it was surreal, he was younger about 8-10yr old wearing a long red t-shirt amost to his knees,just like he use to, he was smiling and happy, I gave him a big warm hug and said you are here and alive, Ryan said yes I am.. Then I woke up and had to pee.. I was happy when I woke up but I wish I didn't have to wake up, I walked to the bathroom real quick in hopes I would go back to him in the dream, it worked I prayed to go back into the dream and finish what I needed to hear, well I went right back to the dream, I said Ryan but we had a funeral for you and Ryan said ya but it was different, Ryan said something happened and someone came and took him, and I said so that's why you were gone for all this time and he said I guess, he was happy and then I woke up again to pee again... I wanted to get back to him for the 3rd time and he left my dream.. I felt so calm and happy..Then it was to early to get up in hopes to see him again, But felt inside he left for awhile, maybe to help someone else.. I accepted it cuz it was the 3rd time in 9yrs where he spoke to me.. I had several other visits with only slide shows of Ryan but he only spoke and communicate with me when he felt the importance times in need of answers.. Before it was to help Erica his sister, and that was at the beginning of Ryan's spiritual visits, but His voice waking me up with yelling ERICA!! And I took his advice and helped her in the only way I know how in a human body and mind here on earth, .. UNBELIEVABLE~~When I fell back to sleep the 3rd time and Ryan didn't return to me I had a very tired dream, without Ryan's warm and comfort, my dream was the opposite I was laying on the floor trying to get up with all kinds of people walking over me and I was So tired I couldn't move... When I woke up I was So Exhausted it took me All I had to get out of bed, I almost yelled to Lan to come help me out of bed, but I forced myself out.. He could tell I had trouble moving then we talked about what happen and asked him if he remembers me saying a couple mummbles to him and he said something back to me but he can't remember, but he Believes me now, I didn't want to completely wake up cause I needed this dream so badly... Ryan's 9th yr is coming up and I know he wants me to know he is happy and is very much alive in spirit.. Thank You Ryan for answering my prayers once again.I believe Ryan saved his dad from dying again....If his dad knows it or not.... I am going to reach out and get together with Steve, Ryans Dad,and I need to talk before he does go to God/Ryan for real, It can clear any guilt I have, even when people say I shouldn't feel guilt I can't help it, its a lesson of Love which Ryan gave me as a gift since Ryan Passed over to the other side..I am not going to proof read this, I am tired and I am not perfect, it takes a toll on us moms and wipes us out when these visits come through.. I love you and miss you Ryan SOOOOO Much!! XOXO to all my SOTH, thank you, I don't share much but when I have a feeling of God and Ryan they give me the nudge to share to you All!! LOVE YOU MOMMA'S (is what we miss hearing from our angels)~~~~~~~~~I KNOW.......XO KellyLee105on DS, FMO website.....
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Yesterday morning before I had to do my weekly Volunteer at the Elderly old age daycare, my dad came in to my part of the house, and wanted my Ex husbands sisters ph #, He said my brother called and heard someone found my Ex in his Car and he might of died, which he had been sitting in his aunts yard for the night.. He gets drunk and what ever else he must of taken made him pass out in the car.I broke down, we never had communicated well, we still don't have any conversation, it always ended argumentative and I don't have any fight left nor energy for that matter..He won't even talk with me about the loss of Ryan, he never could show any weakness, so he drinks and drugs to cope..Now my guilt kicks in and OMG hear comes the tears and don't want this to happen to him but he continues to drink and there is no talking to him, I learned to walk away..Anyway he is OK. She waited 24 hours to go check him out, she was glad she did, if she hadn't he wouldn't of been alive. His aunt called 911, the ambulance brought him into the hospital, his aunt said he couldn't speak and he was grey and his mouth was drooling.. He had drove in her yard and slept in his car, as he does in the summer at time, b/c of all the snow we had in FEB. March has been way to cold to pass out in the car here in NH)I was glad to here he was ok, cause I was getting ready to go to the old age place and wasn't sure if he was dead if I could carry on doing my volunteer work, and those elderly people love when we come, didn't want to let them down..Lan's mom and dad come too and we all laugh and have fun with them..Anyway I let Erica my daughter call her dad and she talked with his girlfriend..and find out the scoop.. Steve's GF Michelle sad they got into a fight and he left to get drunk exactly the way he did when we were together, She said when she got to the hospital he was out of it and the Doctor asked Steve, do you know where you are and Steve would say he is in his Sons bed, over and over, his GF and Aunt told the Doctor that his son died, he asked them how long has his son has been gone and none of them knew how long Ryan had been gone, Steve didn't know either, he said he didn't know but he would say he was in his sons bed... Of course when I heard that I cried, I wondered if he went to heaven and Ryan sent him back and saved his life... I am a BELIEVER, but if I asked Steve that he would of told me, what are you talking about, you're Crazy and whatever else.. It Saddens me,cuz I know how sick Steve is and NO-One can help him but him self...I am hoping this may stop him from what he is doing, but I don't think so...I told Erica get ready for her fathers death in the near future... She was silent on the other end, then in a soft voice she said I know. Erica also told me he called her the night before and she never called him back, But she just sent him a few Pictures of Me and Him and Erica together and Her Husband Chris and her, and some of Ryan and wrote him a nice note on the card a few days before and was wondering if he had got them in the mail before he went out and it all started his rage, i told her its not her fault he doesn't know any difference.. He doesn't have a clue about triggers of what causes him to go out and get drunk, beliviriated<sp>...Its a sad sad disease, but mixing pills and alcochol = death, some die and some don't, it doesn't make since. it saddens me, but he has choices in life and if he can't get it at age 58 then what else would be better for him, I'd rather see him in heaven with Ryan if that's the case, Cause sobering up in jail he wouldn't be-able to handle it, I know him.. I WISH I COULD TALK TO HIM and Clean my side of the street so I can have peace when whatever happens... I believe Ryan will guide me to him when its time, Ryan has been watching over all of us, I believe that was his calling to work with God and do what was laid out for him before he was born... I know cuz I always had a special bond with Ryan which was way bigger then a human being can understand, Hind sight is 20/20...Its a feeling only a mom who losses a child would know!Why I know, is I asked Ryan/God for a nice dream to help me understand what happened and maybe he would give me Information about his dad.. Which has happened to me throughout these nine years Ryan has been in heaven...
DREAM I had last night, came through again, Ask and we shall recieve!!
I remember laying on the floor in a dark room with Lan, I saw blue spots floating around, some in whole circles, and some in small pieces. I remember speaking out to Lan in my dream and he was watching TV, but I would talk in my sleep and he would say something back to me.. I heard him I fell into the darkroom of the dream, I could feel a sensation, I needed to be in this dream..I picked up a broom to sweep up the blue pieces and said I wonder if these blue pieces were Xanax.. From there I opened the door and walked into the next room, Ryan was standing there, it was surreal, he was younger about 8-10yr old wearing a long red t-shirt amost to his knees,just like he use to, he was smiling and happy, I gave him a big warm hug and said you are here and alive, Ryan said yes I am.. Then I woke up and had to pee.. I was happy when I woke up but I wish I didn't have to wake up, I walked to the bathroom real quick in hopes I would go back to him in the dream, it worked I prayed to go back into the dream and finish what I needed to hear, well I went right back to the dream, I said Ryan but we had a funeral for you and Ryan said ya but it was different, Ryan said something happened and someone came and took him, and I said so that's why you were gone for all this time and he said I guess, he was happy and then I woke up again to pee again... I wanted to get back to him for the 3rd time and he left my dream.. I felt so calm and happy..Then it was to early to get up in hopes to see him again, But felt inside he left for awhile, maybe to help someone else.. I accepted it cuz it was the 3rd time in 9yrs where he spoke to me.. I had several other visits with only slide shows of Ryan but he only spoke and communicate with me when he felt the importance times in need of answers.. Before it was to help Erica his sister, and that was at the beginning of Ryan's spiritual visits, but His voice waking me up with yelling ERICA!! And I took his advice and helped her in the only way I know how in a human body and mind here on earth, .. UNBELIEVABLE~~When I fell back to sleep the 3rd time and Ryan didn't return to me I had a very tired dream, without Ryan's warm and comfort, my dream was the opposite I was laying on the floor trying to get up with all kinds of people walking over me and I was So tired I couldn't move... When I woke up I was So Exhausted it took me All I had to get out of bed, I almost yelled to Lan to come help me out of bed, but I forced myself out.. He could tell I had trouble moving then we talked about what happen and asked him if he remembers me saying a couple mummbles to him and he said something back to me but he can't remember, but he Believes me now, I didn't want to completely wake up cause I needed this dream so badly... Ryan's 9th yr is coming up and I know he wants me to know he is happy and is very much alive in spirit.. Thank You Ryan for answering my prayers once again.I believe Ryan saved his dad from dying again....If his dad knows it or not.... I am going to reach out and get together with Steve, Ryans Dad,and I need to talk before he does go to God/Ryan for real, It can clear any guilt I have, even when people say I shouldn't feel guilt I can't help it, its a lesson of Love which Ryan gave me as a gift since Ryan Passed over to the other side..I am not going to proof read this, I am tired and I am not perfect, it takes a toll on us moms and wipes us out when these visits come through.. I love you and miss you Ryan SOOOOO Much!! XOXO to all my SOTH, thank you, I don't share much but when I have a feeling of God and Ryan they give me the nudge to share to you All!! LOVE YOU MOMMA'S (is what we miss hearing from our angels)~~~~~~~~~I KNOW.......XO KellyLee105on DS, FMO website.....
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Oops I posted it on FB and copied and pasted it on DS, This is my FB Profile picture! I haven\'t been able to post some of my photos let me try some.. I have been busy as a bee and have been having trouble keeping up, wishing I wouldn\'t get so tired as I do now, lots of things going on too, I think of all my SOTH all the time, When I think of my Ryan Ithink of all Of you too.. XXOO Hugs and kisses! Kelly
I\'m so glad that Ryan visited you Kelly. You were truly in need of it. Jason is in my dreams fairly frequently, at least a couple of times a year, and he often is a young boy like around 10. Funny when he first passed would come to my dreams as the grown man that he really was but now he is mostly always a child in my dreams. Wonder why that is.
Thank-you for sharing your story with us.
Oh, Kelly... What a journal this IS filled with so many happenings. I hope that you have a chance to speak with Steve because this is something that you can do now and no matter how he receives what you say, it doesn\'t matter. What does matter is that you care enough to share your heart and it might be a finger in a dike moment, where once it\'s out, he is able to say some of the things he needs to. If not, that\'s okay too because you are doing this for Kelly.
I have only been able to get back to a dream once in my life and it was not about Douglas so to be able to do that was amazing. Ryan clearly needed to let you know that he is busily working on your behalf as well as the entire family.
Teri and I LOL all the time about \"RIP\" because we know that Kala and Douglas have never been busier. Same with Ryan and all the kids and can you imagine Barbara... She probably really needs a breather trying to keep all these children of ours in line. :)
You express yourself with so much heart and very well, Kelly. Thank you so much for sharing.
Lots of love and hope that you can connect with Steve. If it\'s meant to happen it will and sometimes timing can be challenging, yet I know you will have Ryan in your corner helping to orchestrate it at the perfect right time.
Tightest of heart (((hugs))) and LOVE!
XO Joanie
Kelly, your Ryan is sending you vibes of love all the time. What a blessing!! wishing for some peace for you in this difficult situation. Hugs, Kathy
I love these dream visits - although I haven\'t had one for a long time now. Amazing that you were able to get back to Ryan a second time - his presence must have been very strong. So sorry to hear about your ex - just too much pain all around. Take care ~ Joanna x
Thank you for all you Sisters of the SOTH for being there for me..XO These dreams are what keeps us going.. I have some things, to share about a couple of mediums i\'ve been too.. Very interesting, my cousin felt the need to bring me to her medium after I went to one a few months before, I am still trying to process it.. I\'m suppose to get together with my cousin today.. Love hearing the positive, it takes lots of pain to understand.. It is all the paradoxes in life... XO
I love this....you are a wonderful person ......xxooo
Kelly, Amazing! Ryan is indeed alive and with God! xoxo
Ryan sure sounds like he is busy. Just like the rest of our Angels keeping an eye on all of us. I do hope things get better with you and your family
Tight Hugs
Penny
Oh dear Kelly, I sure do miss you! I wish we lived closer together.
What an experience and amazing dream! Ryan was most definitely busy, saving his dad and then visiting you with a big warm hug with his long red t-shirt! How great that must have felt!
Hope your week is going well. I know that Ryan\'s Angel Date is coming up in two weeks. In two days, Jared would have been 32. This is a hard time for us.
Sigh...
Love you my dear friend!
Tight hugs,
Diane