I guess I shouldn't think this is odd

Me, well you know I tend to spin about things...I saw the pattern when I am

at home alone that I kind of seek out a goal and carry through with wanting to make it pretty,

like art. I don't know why I should feel like this is odd. I notice the pattern of dealing with emotional

upheaval each day - and no judgements from me - it just is what it is... and so I'll take a similar kind

of vantage on how I decide to do things in my day as well... I have a goal - a notion and just the follow through

is what I'll hope to do with it - make it pretty - and job well done.. whichever -

I have a humility about my place in the world..

and rather than projecting that what I do must be something different or better than what it is -I'll just keep aim, humbly and set about the process of doing what I need to do...A lot of the time when alone - I spin mentally something fierce- like lucid dreaming and it weirds me out... either that or I will stuff my face with food or sit 'waiting' in front of the tv. I guess I am coming to a point where I don't really need to do that to myself anymore. I don't need to judge it - 

but I can focus mindfuly more on what kind of thing I am aiming to do rather than feel like it's got to be in the realm of righteous or 'just so.' I feel better about things. I did eat a whole pin of rocky road...and then felt so gross I took a shower...

But funny stuff aside, I kind of recognize I can just be me 'no frills' but effective.