i give up....
I just give up. I really just f___ing give up. I am exhausted with trying to be happy. The few times I finally meet someone that I really click with it always ends unexpectedly. I doubt I will ever allow myself to get excited again about any stupid guy. I even forced myself to tone down my expectations this time based on previous disappointments, but he kept insisting he seemed so genuine and into me and we clicked! We really clicked, that I thought I had to just go with it and stop guarding my heart. But it seems every time I do that I get smacked into reality. I don't even know what changed. It hardly seems worth the effort. I was so looking forward to the weekend but now it's empty and bleak again. When will this end?
I sure hope the men I've dated don't feel this way when it doesn't work out on my end. I have to remember that I have been the one deciing no more often than not. But right now I just feel so hopeless. When will we both agree it's right and a good fit??? I won't trust it ever to happen again.
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I even suggested to this guy that as much as we liked each other, maybe he needed more healing time post-=divroce, but he kept insisting, so I assumed he knew better than I if he was ready to date or not. I let my better judgement get the best of my common sense. Because a mutual physical AND emotional, intelligence, humor connection is so rare! But lo and behold, he just suddenly tells me he can no longer date - he might not be ready. Really? You changed your mind from thursday afternoon till Friday morning? I don't get it, but he does seem so honest so maybe it's legit. But if so, then why not say - let's delay it for awhile. I guess he met someone else. Damn dating sites let you meet too many people at one time.