I get so angry at times and don't understand it all.
I get so angry at times and don't understand it all. It is not like me but I feel like I have the weight of the whole world on my shoulders.
1. Smokey love of my life died Nov. 15, 2009
2. Looking for work getting out 20 resumes a day out for a receptionist position but few interviews and no bites
3. Dealing with my older brother Don who has Asperger's Syndrome - it is not easy and today I felt like as if I could not handle him any longer and need a break. He zaps me of all my energy. Anyone who is with him for one hour would understand what I mean.
4. Worried about finances since I am not working. Estate not settled yet and I am still waiting to get my Letters of Administration since Smokey died without a will. It sucks. I can't access Smokey's bank account nor his car loan information until I get that darn Letters of Administration and can't get the car in my name so I can sell it since I do not drive nor do I want to at all.
These are my burdens for me to deal with and I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and God just does not hear my prayers nor does He want to help me. Where is God in all this? I just don't understand. Don and I pray faithfully each day but there is no help. I feel as if I want someone to shoot me in my head so I can die and not live anymore. Life sucks for me today from Diane
1. Smokey love of my life died Nov. 15, 2009
2. Looking for work getting out 20 resumes a day out for a receptionist position but few interviews and no bites
3. Dealing with my older brother Don who has Asperger's Syndrome - it is not easy and today I felt like as if I could not handle him any longer and need a break. He zaps me of all my energy. Anyone who is with him for one hour would understand what I mean.
4. Worried about finances since I am not working. Estate not settled yet and I am still waiting to get my Letters of Administration since Smokey died without a will. It sucks. I can't access Smokey's bank account nor his car loan information until I get that darn Letters of Administration and can't get the car in my name so I can sell it since I do not drive nor do I want to at all.
These are my burdens for me to deal with and I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and God just does not hear my prayers nor does He want to help me. Where is God in all this? I just don't understand. Don and I pray faithfully each day but there is no help. I feel as if I want someone to shoot me in my head so I can die and not live anymore. Life sucks for me today from Diane
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