I Finally Called Part 2- Alex

Hey so me and Alex met up and we had a sit down.... I was rocking my brain thinking too much about why she didnt call me. She doesnt do that and often when I dont call she gets upset. I changed my ways and when I seen it was being done to me, I got some advice from my peers and created my own story out of it. I even believed that some stories could be true because it seemed correct but I had to get to the bottom of it all. She just got out of tune with herself was the answer. She said she has so much stuff going on and she thought I did too so she didnt call. I found that a little weird because I know her and that wouldnt phase her. I had alot going on before and she would call me anyways saying, "Whats up? Where have you been?" I still feel that its something else though. I also feel that she seen how upset I was and felt really bad so she didnt say what she truely wanted to say. Whatever that was...I was going crazy because I didnt know how to approach her and let her know how I felt. I am usually the one that gets told something so now when it was the teachers turn, I freaked out lol. Nontheless, I am happy with myself for not having to go through the motions and just get over it. I chose to trust myself and do what I felt from the heart and I expressed it without holding back anything. I cried over the phone a little bit. I feel she intimidates me but I dont know where that fear comes from. Im thinking its because Im being watched and "known". She sees my true skin and for a close friend to see that and also try to teach me it gets uncomfortable for me. It should be natural I know but I dont let people get too close to me, especially girls...So when I chose her as a teacher I was really in need of one. Now that I am on my own, she doesnt play teacher, but, she sees I have changed and it seems like I intimidate her??? She changed a little too.  Usually she is the one telling EVERYONE in her circle what is wrong with them. She calls them her "STRAYS". She picks up people who she thinks needs her help and tries to help them see what they are doing wrong. Only if she feels it is something she can help with and they really need it. I feel that now that she doesnt have to teach me,  she doesnt know how to act around me. She probably isnt used to seeing a lot of people change because they dont want to. She is used to friendships that just dont happen to work and she becomes more of a teacher than a friend. She probably doesnt know how to switch from friend to teacher and back. It is hard to play both roles. Man Im just glad thats behind me...but I wonder about my friend now...