I Finally Called Part 1- Alex

I was searching for a job and I seen that the street was on the same street as Alex's street. So I thought about Alex... I have been so upset because Alex told me she wanted me to be a certain way. Before if I didnt call her or follow up she gets upset as if I forgot about her. I usually did and I was careless about our friendship and possibly thought she was expendable because of how I think. I feel like everyone is expendable because I can let go of someone easily if I wanted to and if they gave me the reason to which I felt Alex has in some ways.  I called her and told her how I felt. It was the hardest thing I had done since gearing myself in a direction to change. She reassured me that she has been busy and she knows I have been busy so she was just caught up. She also realizes that she fell out of touch with me and herself and didnt know that until I mentioned something to her. She felt really bad that I felt bad and now we are going to meet to have a sit down. I know how it is to get tangled in your own shit and forget. Im glad she didnt mean to teach me a lesson in which it flourished to be one anyways. I have definately learned my lesson and Im glad it wasnt taught the hard way. I would have felt very childish next to her and I wouldnt want to develope those feelings towards my friend.  The lesson I have learned is not to be so consumed with yourself to where you forget others around you. Those people have feelings and  they may feel something other than what you truly feel for them.  I am so happy I got that out of my system. I am going to make a goal to be attentive to my actions towards others and not be so big headed.