I FEEL this! Don't dismiss my feelings!

I have great friends but they don't really get much of what I experience.  There's always a "you'll be fine" or "just do it" undertone to everything they say to me.  On one hand, I see they have faith in my capabilities.  I have a strong history of going through a lot, managing a lot and surviving a lot.  They are living in a past I can't recreate right now.  I know in the future I will be full of steam and well and healthy again, however, right now I struggle.  For the past decade, I have struggled.  The cycles of anxiety and depression are tough.  Now, on the other hand, I feel this pain and sadness and fear and I need it to be validated.  I don't always want fixes or solutions.  Sometimes, I really just need people to know I am doing all that I can and this, in whatever form, is the best you will you get of me!   This is new to me.  I haven't journaled in so long, this is new again.  I feel good.  I can feel all of these thoughts that usually swirl in my head settling down.  I asked God for help and I feel he brought me here to develop skills, put broken pieces together, to tear down battered walls and rebuild my best self.  I don't mean to sound as though I have not made great successes managing these difficult thoughts and feelings.  I have for sure over the years!  I'm just starting to realize my well-being requires constant consideration and I don't have to feel ashamed or selfish for caring about me!