I feel lost/alone without Smokey in this apartment of mine.

I feel lost and alone without Smokey living in the one bed room apartment with me.  I am trying to figure out why I feel so sad at home.
I go out to my daughter's place or anywhere else and I don't feel so sad.  I feel at peace when I am at my daughter's place.  I feel real good there.
I think its a combination of things:  
1.  I am in post-menopause which I still have hot flashes, mood swings and depression.                2.  I am actively seeking a job without much success.  I get discouraged about this one.                                                                                        3.  I have surrendered to God about finding another soul mate man.  I am in no hurry.            4.  Living in the apartment without Smokey in it leaves me lost and lonely.
I think its mostly living in the apartment without Smokey which makes me feel lost and alone.  I am not lonely.  I really feel lost and alone in the apartment without my Smokey in it.  Its so not fair.  I will not meet another man like my Smokey.  Its impossible.  
From Dmtb