I feel lost

I have to move in about a  month.  I'm looking but so far havent founf an acceptable place that i can afford. 

I have to get a biopsy to see if i have cancer. im worried and losing sleep.

i feel very detached from friends.  I had been very active on fb.  Not anymore.  Even the friends i have real life contact with i still feel very disconnected and lonely.  I feel so alone.  So lonely. 

And ive been bleeding for months menstrally.  it has finally stopped. my dr wants me to get a procedure done to help long term and i'm taking progesterone and im not sure it that is negatively affecting my mood as well.

i feel very afraid that the people ive been considering closest to me do not consider me so close.  i feel very unimportnat in peoples lives.

i dont have a partner per se.  my primary sexual/romantic partner it seems that the relationship doesn't feel very secure.  i find myself feeling rejected.

i want to be ok with it, but i'm not. i havent left the relationship.  i dont really believe that i will ever find what i want.  i havent had anything other than a friends with benefits or fuck buddy since getting a divorce 5 years ago.

no partners seem to take me seriously.

i feel like there's so much coming @me right now.  i often feel i will just cry.