I feel like I\'m choking

I feel like life is trying to get me. I can list everything that is happening but it will take too long. I stop taking my meds and now I thinking that was not smart. I pride myself on being smart. I guess not any more. I have a lot things happening all a once. Court is my major concern, kids, money. NO MONEY is my major concern. I need money to get a lawyer and make too much money for a public defender. Aint that a bitch! I need money to eat and for the kids winter clothes and winter is not going to wait until I get paid again. And neither is the bills.