I feel...

I feel unwanted, useless, sad, lonely, and hurt. I don't think my friends really like me. My ex....I think he feels sorry for me, and that's why he's still around. I have one friend that I got back in touch with last year some time (or the year before), and she's a good friend when she's around....but we don't talk/hang out much. Besides my family, everyone I was close to is gone. Actually, even some of my family members aren't as close with me as we used to be. I feel like I can never trust anyone. I feel like I expect my friends, family, and loved ones to betray me, mess up, and/or leave. 
I also feel like I have too many problems and can't be loved. My ex loved me even though I was broken, but even that didn't last. 
I'm tired of it all.....but I keep fighting to live anyway...........this SOOOOOOOOOO SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!