I dont know what to do.HELP!!!!

I am so lost right now and i have no clue where to start. I have two wonderful boys that  love so much but the other day I miscarriaged our third baby. I was only 7weeks 4 days and we had only know for about 3 weeks. I was on bed rest for two weeks due to bleeding and it was hard bc i couldnt do anything with my 17month old son. But on saturday we believe i have lost the baby bc since then i am not bleeding anymore and not hurtting anymore and i am not having the craving like i was those first few weeks. I have tooken a few home tests to check and see what they say and they all say that i am not but one. but i am trying to get seen by a ob doc in the area, we just moved and i am trying to find doctors and get insurace. this is one time that i wish i was back in my hometown to go see my old ob and find out what is really going on with me. I know that i need to come to terms with what has happened but i dont want to. i want to believe that nothing is wrong and i am still pregnant. but i know that i needto do something about it and i think that i will come to terms with it once i hear it come rom the doctors mouth and then i will be able to know what really happened. i was in the er four times in 2 1/2 weeks bc of this and i didnt get any answers. They did some blood work each time i was there and they said that my levels where low at first but them 3 days they were higher but just not as much as they should have been. but that was good news to me and meant that i was doing better and so was the baby. but i guess that my levels dropped really low real fast bc withi a week i had lost the baby. i am so sad right now and i am not wanting to get depressed bc i have two small children that need me and i am homeschooling one of them and trying to teach my youngest some things right now and the holidays are just around the corner as well as my oldest sons birthday and mine next month. me and my hubby to be dont really talk about it bc i dont think he wants to come t terms with it either and i am the type of person that i will just how my feelings in for along time bc i have to be strong for my boys. i am just so lost and dont know what to do. i dont have any friends where i am at right now, we have been here 2 months, but i dont know anyone but like three people other than my family that is here. i try to stay busy so i dont think about it but i think about it every time i am laying in bed at night and when i watch shows wit babies and part of my eart breaks. i have not idea what to do but i will figure it out wth time.