I don\'t want to do this anymore.

I don't want to do this anymore.  I don't want to be worried or upset or anxious or scared over my health anymore.  I am tired of it all.  Maybe if I write out what I am feeling I will feel better.  1. I have nausea most of the day if I eat or do not. 2. muscle fatigue like I am working twice as hard as I am. 3. feel breathless I know I have asthma but this is different. 4. my stomach feels all bloated and full even if I only eat a small meal and I stay full for hours.  5. feel off balance or dizzy. 6. eyes doing that jerking thing again. 7. Also I have lost 20 pounds and I know you lose some weight after having a baby but thats 20 pounds that i didn't gain while I was pregnant, so now I am 20 pounds lighter then I was before I was pregnant.  I am sure there is more but I am tired and can't think.  The doctor the time before last in October did a cbc and thyroid test and both came back fine.  Am I anemic or is it something worse like cancer?  If I was anemic It would show up in the last blood test and it didn't. My symptoms weren't this bad ether.  I fully conceed this could be anxiety but I know for a fact that some of my symptoms showed up before I was anxious at all. I am scared that it is something awful and I will leave behind my husband and my sons.  I guess I am going to have to go back to the doctor because I can't ignore all of those signs, there is something wrong and I need help.  The np that I see only has hours on Friday I can't wait that long I am going to see if I can see one of the other doctors in the practice.  I am scared I hate going to the doctor, I hate explaining things to them, and I hate the fact that you have to wait to find out anything and everything.  And should I tell the doctor all that I am feeling, I notice sometimes they seem overwhelmed if you do this.  And they tend to get unfocused.  I know I should trust God  that he will see me through this, I need Him to intervene and to give the doctors and myself wisdom as to what is going on and what to do next.  Please Lord help me.