i don't want meds, I just want to feel better

today has been a really hard day. serious negative feelings and i need to just reach out.
i woke up early to go to work and then when i got there they sent me home because they needed me to work later. I am thinking that really threw off my schedule and my sense of being at ease. i had also made plans that because of this change were totally cancelled.
I went to a party yesterday, a graduation event, and it was so wonderful to be there.
The event uncovered a truth about myself that I can't speak - I need to somehow be reminded of the positive interactions - the connections. THAT's where my better truth is, that's where I live - and that's where I feel good.
I feel better for venting this. Thanks if you read this.
Peace,
Mark