I don\'t understand.

Dear Kitty,             It's not fair; I don't want to do it, but I do so much too. I'm trying so hard not to. I'm doing what Fraser suggested; I'm trying to distract myself, but it's lights out in fifteen minutes, and then...that's always when it's worst. When it's dark and I've got nobody that I can talk to about it. I don't know what to do. Maybe I should just stop trying. Maybe I should just go and cut myself. I can't see the point in trying not to.MeP.S. I can't, I can't, I can't...but I want to so much.