I don't need a new hole
It's almost happy hour and I am looking forward to sipping a cosmopolitan. I a m tried but I plan to sleep well last night. Most of the time I smoke pot and the next morning I feel like crap. But, last night i smoked pot, slept great and woke up refreshed and wonderful. I thin that I am going to do the same thing tonight even though you know that I need to write that paper all day tomorrow, no lie.
I don't know if I told you this, but I was messing with some pills. One night I took 8 pills of xanax, that's 16mg. I though that I would not wake up and I was hoping for that resolution. But, I woke up in the morning as though nothing happened. My grandmother had died near that date and I think she must have been watching over me. I loved her and I miss her greatly. I really wan't to spend time with my family, the Targos family and I loved to be at that house. It was like going on vacation. Bacia's house was protective and relaxing, noting could touch me there. I am going to miss spending good time there.
I don't know what is dragging me down right now. I don't know if I am getting sick or becoming a little more depressed. I see the doctor soon and I think that we are going to lower the seroquel level before we begin to touch the benzo level. I am on klonopin right now with a 2mg xanax as needed for panic and anxiety. I also need to take a lithium level to see if it is at a therapeutic level. I hope that there is room to lower the lithium level. After the seroquel is gone then we can start working on the benzos and the lamictal.
We're watching Dateline and like I said it is now 20 minutes past the beginning of my happy hour. I hope everything goes well with my paper tomorrow, I am going to work hard to prove that I am a serious student. One of seven years. I'll try to find some time tomorrow to write as I know it is the only therapy I have.
Goodnight moon.
I don't know if I told you this, but I was messing with some pills. One night I took 8 pills of xanax, that's 16mg. I though that I would not wake up and I was hoping for that resolution. But, I woke up in the morning as though nothing happened. My grandmother had died near that date and I think she must have been watching over me. I loved her and I miss her greatly. I really wan't to spend time with my family, the Targos family and I loved to be at that house. It was like going on vacation. Bacia's house was protective and relaxing, noting could touch me there. I am going to miss spending good time there.
I don't know what is dragging me down right now. I don't know if I am getting sick or becoming a little more depressed. I see the doctor soon and I think that we are going to lower the seroquel level before we begin to touch the benzo level. I am on klonopin right now with a 2mg xanax as needed for panic and anxiety. I also need to take a lithium level to see if it is at a therapeutic level. I hope that there is room to lower the lithium level. After the seroquel is gone then we can start working on the benzos and the lamictal.
We're watching Dateline and like I said it is now 20 minutes past the beginning of my happy hour. I hope everything goes well with my paper tomorrow, I am going to work hard to prove that I am a serious student. One of seven years. I'll try to find some time tomorrow to write as I know it is the only therapy I have.
Goodnight moon.
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