i don't know what i am doing

it's the start of my vacation week and just as I am starting to write this I am starting to turn emotionally around and just embrace it.

Just take each day for what it is and the opportunity that it is. It's weird how certain "shoulds" can enter our minds and really taint the outlook we have

on the quality or worthiness of our goals, plans and experiences. I have this week off and though I was busy in the morning, I found the downtime that I had, made me get philosophical. I won't do it. I won't judge myself but I will be wise and practical as well as nourturing and kind to who I am, and the circle of family and friends that I have. Not everyone in the world was meant to live the same kind of life. That doesn't mean we be spiritually absent in our pursuits and existence in society.

I felt kind of proud today because I made a major benchmark in my savings. I don't know what I will do with it - but I won't look

a gift horse in the mouth. I will grasp onto my plans and embrace my life.