I don't know if I can....

......move past feeling invalidated. I have to better understand why he asked the question. The worst thing he could do is not believe me. There is no repairing that kind of damage. If asking me if the shed existed was....oh hell....I just don't know where that question came from. Even after he answered me, I just don't understand how the question came to be. I read and reread his response. I feel like I am chasing my own tail. I left him a voice mail today saying I still had a problem understanding. He hasn't called me back. I left it on the voice mail and not with the answering service. I'm not sure how often he checks his voice mail.
I am kind of angry. I am a little scared. I am trying to keep an open mind until the next session which isn't until August 12th.
In the worst case scenario he doesn't believe me. I'm done then. I will just stop because there is no fixing that. The thought of that hurts pretty badly. Cry a while then bury it. I might as well just accept I'm what I am and it won't change. I suppose I could try doing it on my own but right now.....right now I just don't care.
Right now I have absolutely no objective perspective on this. The past 2 days I have had mood swings like I haven't experienced in years. Total elation and complete hopelessness.
The best thing for me to do right now it try to not decide before I have all the information I need and have a chance to digest it.
He has been doing this for a long time so I can't believe he would be ignorant enough say I was imagining things. I hope he wouldn't. Especially after a year. Especially after knowing how invalidating my father was.
Right now I need to step back.