I don't expect anyone to read all of these

I have never been a journal person but it really seems to help to vent here, and I don't have to do it in the forums where I suspect it would look like a lot of whining. So I started unpacking but it is going to be a HUGE project.  I dunno how I'm going to get it all done on this low energy that I have going.   I have decided to fight to be less crazy but it's really hard.  I drive and I think about hitting trees, I carry a big sheet of glass and... it's like a constant thought in my head that I am willing myself not to take action on.   So it's a struggle but I'm winning so far and eventually hopefully the wellbutrin kicks in and helps me out.